Stay alone

Huh... exam is over.

The moment i entered the living room, i thrown my school bag aside. Started to settle down. Nothing inside my head, desperately to stay empty, still and stunt. Fully enjoyed the relief gained after the exam. No burden, no pressure, no crowded people around. Just me, myself.

I love the feel. In fact, im addicted to it. Early morning when wake up, i can just sit around the staircase, think of nothing. Appreciate the morning silence, to be alone. Time pass easily when im in "coma". 5 minutes passed, 10 minutes...... still coulnd't pull myself out. Sentimentally attached to the sensation and peacefulness.

In this world, due to technology advancement, many sounds were created. Especially in town, we are living in those sound polution environment. So i do teasure even one minute silence i have, be alone myself, or sometime just think without constrain. Completely pull myself out of the reality.

Is worth for you to at least spend few minutes, simply listen to your inner voice. You may understand what i trying to explain here. You will love it.

Exam nightmare

During younger day, purpose of schooling is meant for sitting the exam. I do curious, how incredible my little brain can input so many stuffs within a short period. I tend to ignore the reason behind of study. For me, memorize is the only way to pass the exam. Had "pre-printed" in my head. I hardly understand what factor of biology topic, chemistry chain reaction bla bla bla, By using strong memory effort, i passed my exam for the past 10 years.

I realise that, memorize can only work on those "fact" topics, but for sure not a language. I took up Japanese course just for interest lately. Whereby language itself do has exam both in writing and conversation. My old thought had failed me this. Learing by memorizing one by one doesn't work. Language needs a speak out.

With my worn out brain (10 years older compare to school age), i got to learn by hard the way to convey a phrase, express feeling. Gradually, i appreciate the "understanding" is actually more useful than memorizing. By understand, you can automatically apply when necessary. Situation by situation, case by case.

Haha..., anyway, my nightmare of exam is gonna come soon. I still couldn't get rid of the pressure for "not fully memorize" the whole book. Kind of trauma to me. Nevertheless, i shall find a new method to ease it, sleeping perhaps haha........ :)